what lives and what grows
© rushmore beekeepers, released September 16, 2022
- Songs by Zach Fountain; music by Zach Fountain and Amanda Hawkins
- Vocals, acoustic guitar, electric guitar, mandolin, tenor guitar, and harmonica by Zach Fountain
- Vocals, electric guitar, bass guitar, keyboards, electro beats, percussion, and clarinet by Amanda Hawkins
- Drums, percussion, keyboards, and trumpet by Sam Greene
- Artwork by Amanda Hawkins
- Produced, engineered and mixed by Amanda Hawkins, Zach Fountain, and Sam Greene
- Mastered by Zach Fountain
Tracklist
- heavy hands 2:37
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my heavy hands, pulling shapes from the air
some survive
that broken skyline, i walked for miles
and i’ll never be there again
from glassy water to waves pulled by the moon
i can see you through the cloudy darkness
branches bend, reaching low with
heavy hands, summer rain
creatures swim in the sky above
they’ve lived through more than i’ll see
we kissed under a broken streetlight
you smiled in the strange electric haze
i’ll take you back, under the moon
in the lookout in the rain
there’s nothing left, there’s no purpose
but we’ll find what we need
we wandered recklessly on these old roads
i carelessly held you so closely - approaching uncertainty 3:28
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when you told me you’d miss me
as sure as the sky is grey, you do
i remember dismissing the future
approaching uncertainty as recklessly as always
i’ll be there soon out there with you
we’ll talk awkwardly, i’m sure
catching up after weird endless months
disorienting, how did the future get here?
when you told me you’d find me
as sure as the day is here, you did
you spoke of numbers, a path to the future
approaching uncertainty as recklessly as me
approaching uncertainty as recklessly as me - beneath our feet 2:39
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there’s only one road into your town
i couldn’t handle that, i’d need some way out
not traveling much but not for long
we’ll get it together, find a road to get on
i’ve heard these tales of times that have passed
i’ve seen the old world, the ghosts of what you had
went on forever, then forever finally ended
things got harder even if no one meant it
the wind whips through, fighting with the trees
the road crumbles, gives way beneath our feet
i’ll ride with this caravan, i’ll be someone who stays
i’ll believe it all and earn my place - imposter 2:51
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snowing in april, the cold is holding on
couldn’t tell you what day it is
i’m in no rush to get out there
we’ve made it through the worst of this
and our lost year
gets farther away every day
tending a garden, at least i’m trying
i’ll see what lives and what grows
learning in pieces and always assuming
i’m catching up with what everyone knows
and i lost time
but found a little today
don’t blame the sun for hiding away
or the clouds for taking up space
i’ll find meaning if i travel far enough
hold the stars, get back to the same place
and i’ll make up
for it all someday - a long way 3:54
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i’ll take the messiness of this
over the certainty i longed for
by the light of a day barely starting
this isn’t everything but something more
always worried about the future, present, past
worried now and that’s all right
by the grace of the road you’re traveling
i’ll meet you between yours and mine
some days sway
with the heaviness of it all
even though we tread so lightly
if i don’t see you, tell me if you got this
it’s a long way to your eyes
by the light of a city in distress
i hope you make it out, make it out in time - the quiet sea 2:52
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i took the path that you told me to
lit the way with the evening sun
felt my feet push with every step
where the stones sink in the mud
i asked every living creature i met
do you know where i should go?
somewhere between every place i’ve been
and the walls that were your home
guess i know you in a way
soundless waves and desert pines
ran through the nighttime searching
in vain for the morning light
and i know you’re waiting
by those giant rocks, the quiet sea
i collected every page you wrote
and burned your words to keep warm
fought my way through the coldest, darkest night
and still came back for more
and i know you’re waiting
by those giant rocks, the quiet sea - thin air 2:52
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spent ten years thinking
caught up searching for the right words
dictionaries keep changing
i’m writing all my letters again
learning your language
hear you talking ‘bout your day
while the earth keeps tumbling
we’re taking our sweet time
i get lost between the seasons
like i’m breathing in thin air
never saw you leaving
know i’ll see you somewhere
all this time spent being sure
i know nothing is close to answered
though my ink is running dry
i’m writing all my letters again
i get lost between the seasons
like i’m breathing in thin air
never saw you leaving
know i’ll see you somewhere - long and lonely arms 2:36
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made up my mind to be on time for you
i want to give more of what you need
taking chances, i’m saving my dances, you know
i’ve never been one to lead
in the longest night, i’ll get it right again
these tests weren’t made for people like me
feel it in the wind, your body spins in time
like the whole world is dancing free
saw you leave, the way you held back
saw the way the light hit your eyes
i walk your street and every tree it reaches
with its long and lonely arms
at your doorstep, with all that’s left i’m holding
we’ll keep each other from all harm - one step or two 3:21
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will you wait for me
you know i don’t like going here alone
don’t look friendly, i feel guilty
one step or two from a major faux pas
still not used to wearing glasses
and i’m sure that it shows
what do i do with my hands
like i’m back at the state fair melodramas
oh, oh, uh oh
oh, oh, uh oh
i still read so slowly
takes so long to get lost in my head
but i daydream with no problem
like i’m living the sleepiest life
will you wait for me
you know i’m easily distracted
what do i do with all this
one step or two
from one step or two from a long time
oh, oh, uh oh
oh, oh, uh oh
one step or two
from one step or two from a long time - summer haze 3:57
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trying to look in your direction
i can see where you’re going
i can see the path you follow
will you turn back, glance at me
hope you know i’m here
i’m not lost but moving slow
used to see monsters, now i hear them in the night
i saw the twisted ones
they looked a lot like me
in summer haze, in a winter’s fever
used to know my ghosts
now my ghosts are memories
the ground it creaks, breathes under my feet
i’m walking softly
quietly calling for you
the brightness of day, the darkness of space
we’re here together
for whatever makes it true