what lives and what grows

© rushmore beekeepers, released September 16, 2022

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  • Songs by Zach Fountain; music by Zach Fountain and Amanda Hawkins
  • Vocals, acoustic guitar, electric guitar, mandolin, tenor guitar, and harmonica by Zach Fountain
  • Vocals, electric guitar, bass guitar, keyboards, electro beats, percussion, and clarinet by Amanda Hawkins
  • Drums, percussion, keyboards, and trumpet by Sam Greene
  • Artwork by Amanda Hawkins
  • Produced, engineered and mixed by Amanda Hawkins, Zach Fountain, and Sam Greene
  • Mastered by Zach Fountain

Tracklist

  1. heavy hands » lyrics
    my heavy hands, pulling shapes from the air
    some survive
    that broken skyline, i walked for miles
    and i’ll never be there again

    from glassy water to waves pulled by the moon
    i can see you through the cloudy darkness

    branches bend, reaching low with
    heavy hands, summer rain
    creatures swim in the sky above
    they’ve lived through more than i’ll see

    we kissed under a broken streetlight
    you smiled in the strange electric haze

    i’ll take you back, under the moon
    in the lookout in the rain
    there’s nothing left, there’s no purpose
    but we’ll find what we need

    we wandered recklessly on these old roads
    i carelessly held you so closely
  2. approaching uncertainty » lyrics
    when you told me you’d miss me
    as sure as the sky is grey, you do
    i remember dismissing the future
    approaching uncertainty as recklessly as always

    i’ll be there soon out there with you
    we’ll talk awkwardly, i’m sure
    catching up after weird endless months
    disorienting, how did the future get here?

    when you told me you’d find me
    as sure as the day is here, you did
    you spoke of numbers, a path to the future
    approaching uncertainty as recklessly as me
    approaching uncertainty as recklessly as me
  3. beneath our feet » lyrics
    there’s only one road into your town
    i couldn’t handle that, i’d need some way out
    not traveling much but not for long
    we’ll get it together, find a road to get on

    i’ve heard these tales of times that have passed
    i’ve seen the old world, the ghosts of what you had
    went on forever, then forever finally ended
    things got harder even if no one meant it

    the wind whips through, fighting with the trees
    the road crumbles, gives way beneath our feet
    i’ll ride with this caravan, i’ll be someone who stays
    i’ll believe it all and earn my place
  4. imposter » lyrics
    snowing in april, the cold is holding on
    couldn’t tell you what day it is
    i’m in no rush to get out there
    we’ve made it through the worst of this

    and our lost year
    gets farther away every day

    tending a garden, or at least i’m trying
    i’ll see what lives and what grows
    learning in pieces and always assuming
    i’m catching up with what everyone knows

    and i lost time
    but found a little today

    i don’t blame the sun for hiding away
    or the clouds for taking up space
    i’ll find meaning if i travel far enough
    hold the stars, get back to the same place

    and i’ll make up
    for it all someday
  5. a long way » lyrics
    i’ll take the messiness of this
    over the certainty i longed for
    by the light of a day barely starting
    this isn’t everything but something more

    always worried about the future, present, past
    worried now and that’s all right
    by the grace of the road you’re traveling
    i’ll meet you between yours and mine

    some days sway
    with the heaviness of it all
    even though we tread so lightly

    if i don’t see you, tell me if you got this
    it’s a long way to your eyes
    by the light of a city in distress
    i hope you make it out, make it out in time
  6. the quiet sea » lyrics
    i took the path that you told me to
    lit the way with the evening sun
    felt my feet push with every step
    where the stones sink in the mud

    i asked every living creature i met
    do you know where i should go?
    somewhere between every place i’ve been
    and the walls that were your home

    guess i know you in a way
    soundless waves and desert pines
    ran through the nighttime searching
    in vain for the morning light

    and i know you’re waiting
    by those giant rocks, the quiet sea

    i collected every page you wrote
    and burned your words to keep warm
    fought my way through the coldest, darkest night
    and still came back for more

    and i know you’re waiting
    by those giant rocks, the quiet sea
  7. thin air » lyrics
    spent ten years thinking
    caught up searching for the right words
    dictionaries keep changing
    i’m writing all my letters again

    learning your language
    hear you talking ‘bout your day
    while the earth keeps tumbling
    we’re taking our sweet time

    i get lost between the seasons
    like i’m breathing in thin air
    never saw you leaving
    know i’ll see you somewhere

    all this time spent being sure
    i know nothing is close to answered
    though my ink is running dry
    i’m writing all my letters again

    i get lost between the seasons
    like i’m breathing in thin air
    never saw you leaving
    know i’ll see you somewhere
  8. long and lonely arms » lyrics
    made up my mind to be on time for you
    i want to give more of what you need
    taking chances, i’m saving my dances, you know
    i’ve never been one to lead

    in the longest night, i’ll get it right again
    these tests weren’t made for people like me
    feel it in the wind, your body spins in time
    like the whole world is dancing free

    saw you leave, the way you held back
    saw the way the light hit your eyes

    i walk your street and every tree it reaches
    with its long and lonely arms
    at your doorstep, with all that’s left i’m holding
    we’ll keep each other from all harm
  9. one step or two » lyrics
    will you wait for me
    you know i don’t like going here alone
    don’t look friendly, i feel guilty
    one step or two from a major faux pas

    still not used to wearing glasses
    and i’m sure that it shows
    what do i do with my hands
    like i’m back at the state fair melodramas

    oh, oh, uh oh
    oh, oh, uh oh

    i still read so slowly
    takes so long to get lost in my head
    but i daydream with no problem
    like i’m living the sleepiest life

    will you wait for me
    you know i’m easily distracted
    what do i do with all this
    one step or two
    from one step or two from a long time

    oh, oh, uh oh
    oh, oh, uh oh

    one step or two
    from one step or two from a long time
  10. summer haze » lyrics
    trying to look in your direction
    i can see where you’re going
    i can see the path you follow
    will you turn back, glance at me
    hope you know i’m here
    i’m not lost but moving slow

    used to see monsters, now i hear them in the night
    i saw the twisted ones
    they looked a lot like me
    in summer haze, in a winter’s fever
    used to know my ghosts
    now my ghosts are memories

    the ground it creaks, breathes under my feet
    i’m walking softly
    quietly calling for you
    the brightness of day, the darkness of space
    we’re here together
    for whatever makes it true