song every seven

© rushmore beekeepers, released March 2, 2021

RBK wrote, recorded, and released one song every Tuesday from March 10, 2020 to March 2, 2021, with original artwork complementing each song. Recorded at Dirt to Mud Studio in Tulsa, OK and Love Morris Studio in Gilbert, AZ.

  • Songs by Zach Fountain; music by Zach Fountain and Amanda Hawkins
  • Vocals, acoustic guitar, electric guitar, mandolin, octave mandolin, banjo, tenor guitar, harmonica, harmonium, and drum machine by Zach Fountain
  • Vocals, electric guitar, bass guitar, keyboards, electro beats, percussion, and glockenspiel by Amanda Hawkins
  • Artwork by Amanda Hawkins
  • Produced, engineered and mixed by Amanda Hawkins and Zach Fountain
  • Mastered by Zach Fountain

Tracklist

  1. fingertips (01) 3:11 » lyrics
    if the world ends someday soon
    will it mean the same
    to you and me, to you and me
    we share a drink, don’t hold hands
    i’ll never feel the wind blow
    so strong again, so cold again

    that big ol’ clock is counting down
    hands they spin, lose their way
    to you and me, to you and me
    we share a meal, pass the time
    i’ll never hear your voice
    so clear again, so sure again

    heard your fingertips, tap tap tap
    at my bedroom door
    looking for me, looking for me
    we share a path, walk for miles
    i’ll never feel my feet tread
    lightly again, so free again
    lightly again, so free again
  2. at a distance (02) 2:38 » lyrics
    alarm bells ring in the distance
    as i sit at home and try to assess this
    couldn't be as bad as they say
    but look at those obituaries
    pages and pages

    they're cancelling all of the dances
    everyone is being sent home
    say when and where
    and i'll meet you at a distance
    we'll air dance to the radio

    we're all sold on the end times
    scripture to the movies, it's wrapped in our minds
    couldn't be as bad as they say
    might wait it out
    or line up to be saved

    we're all taking our chances
    not everyone has a choice
    say when and where
    and i'll meet you at a distance
    and try to make sense of the noise
  3. counting days (03) 3:17 » lyrics
    1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 days
    9 10 11 12
    a little more than a little bit lonely without you here
    still i hope you’re taking care of yourself

    when i see you again
    i’ll say i haven’t seen you since back when
    we thought we had it all together

    13 14 15 16 days
    17 18 19 20 21
    you sent a letter, you’re a little bit lonely without me, dear
    still every day i hope you don’t find someone

    when i see you again
    i’ll say i haven’t seen you since back when
    we thought we had it all together

    when i see you again
    i’ll say i’ve had some time to think about when
    we truly did have it all together

    sunrise sunset, i’m done counting days
    does no one any good
    a little bit more than a little bit lonely without you here
    if you ever want to call, i hope you would
  4. locked down and shuttered (04) 2:49 » lyrics
    streetlights shine all night
    this town is locked down and shuttered
    waiting for you to walk by
    but we’re all hiding from each other

    days keep going, rolling
    when it’s dark out you can take your time
    how long, there’s no way of knowing
    but when this is over come on by
  5. drag my feet (05) 2:06 » lyrics
    these storms come without warning
    in the middle of the day or night
    sometimes you see them brewing
    sometimes you’re ready to put up a fight

    i can hear an engine roaring
    somewhere, i can’t see
    i’m looking everywhere
    trying hard not to drag my feet

    i’ll wonder these endless pages
    find what i’m looking for
    these words, they say, weren’t meant for me
    but i don’t listen to them anymore, anymore, anymore

    dress up and get out of town
    hold your hands tightly wringing
    carry yourself with a new voice
    listen to that
    listen to that
    listen to that distant mournful singing
  6. at least for now (06) 3:21 » lyrics
    everybody’s walking
    outside right now
    doing what they can while they can
    everybody’s plotting
    how to get out
    i’m settled in, don’t need a plan

    we’ve got everything we need
    at least for now
    and for now that’s all we need

    pretty bad
    at writing letters
    letting days and years pass by
    was a nomad
    getting better
    at staying put but times still fly

    we’ve got everything we need
    at least for now
    and for now that’s all we need

    the storm it came
    they said it would
    we can’t all hunker down
    i know each name
    at least i should
    only wish you’d make a sound

    we’ve got everything we need
    at least for now
    and for now that’s all we need
    at least for now that’s all we need
  7. real things (07) 2:53 » lyrics
    got new shoes, nowhere to go
    walking my dog down the road
    wanna go out? i don’t, no
    guess i forgot everything’s closed

    late at night, listen to the wind
    i have the time, the time to spend
    when are you coming around again?
    i can’t wait for this to begin

    my messy hair, your shining eyes
    existential feelings in the morning light
    try i may, try i might
    if i grow up i’ll be surprised

    reading real books, feeling the paper
    checking the weather, waving at neighbors
    apologizing for my behavior
    making these hours something to savor
  8. river veins (08) 3:03 » lyrics
    i soaked my hands in water
    till they couldn't hold any more
    my wrinkles like river veins
    leading to the ocean

    i turned my eyes to the sky
    closed against the brightness
    my eyelids letting light in
    like a canopy of trees

    these memories have lost their purpose
    but their uselessness is something
    i can rely on

    and i'm not running
    from anything anymore
    i'm holding my ground and facing
    whatever is on its way

    i saw my fingers drift away
    spilling on the table
    holding tightly to whatever words
    made their way to the page

    i heard my mouth fall to pieces
    as i tried to speak these thoughts
    whatever tumbles out i hope
    will find its way like the wind

    these memories have lost their purpose
    but their uselessness is something
    i can rely on

    and i'm not running
    from anything anymore
    i'm holding my ground and facing
    whatever is on its way
  9. each step was mine (09) 3:16 » lyrics
    i may stay this way for years
    almost knowing, never quite sure
    i’ve held this in my hands
    can’t count the times
    the harder i try, the harder i try

    you may see me someday when
    you’re done imagining you’ll see me again
    i’ll hold you in my arms
    like i did in my mind
    the harder i try, the harder i try

    it may seem so obvious
    mapping this route that found us
    i’ll hold truth in my hands
    like it was always mine
    the harder i try, the harder i try

    i can see it when i close my eyes
    the bridge that leads from here to that side
    i’ll take each step
    like each step was mine
    the harder i try, the harder i try
  10. everything at once (10) 2:33 » lyrics
    i’m sitting on the floor
    with my back against the wall
    and i’m listening to these noises
    tryin’ to make sense of them all
    there’s too much going on
    i can’t keep up
    when i hear your footsteps i’ll know
    i listened long enough

    i’m far too restless to sit back
    and enjoy the day
    but i’m too weary to fight it
    as it slips away
    there’s too much going on
    everything at once
    how long can you hold out
    how much is enough

    and i’m bound to end up somewhere
    maybe i’ll see you there

    i’m sitting on my porch
    as people walk by
    some are young, some are old
    we’re all alive
    there’s too much going on
    i hope for now we keep up
    i’m okay being part of
    everything at once

    and i’m bound to end up somewhere
    maybe i’ll see you there
  11. take a moment (11) 2:57 » lyrics
    in the morning, so sleepy
    taking a moment
    wonder if you’re dreaming
    the way the sun shines
    weirdly bright

    in the morning, waking so early
    go back to sleep
    let the birds sing
    the way the sun shines
    let’s close our eyes

    in the night time, up so late
    you can feel everything
    and carry the weight
    the way the stars frame
    the glowing moonlight
  12. drawn in the stone (12) 2:49 » lyrics
    they tore the building down
    at the end of the street
    we were all staying home
    didn’t see a thing

    so much noise i could’ve sworn
    i felt the earth shake
    thought it was a halfway house
    wonder what they’ll put in its place

    nothing will stand forever
    no matter how you build it
    little more than a lifetime
    old enough for you to feel it

    the columns are crumbling
    see cracks drawn in the stone
    this could stand 100 years
    maybe longer if you leave it alone

    nothing will stand forever
    no matter how you build it
    little more than a lifetime
    old enough for you to feel it
  13. interstellar shelter (13) 2:22 » lyrics
    hey friend, give me a ride
    i promise not to get in the way
    i’ll earn my keep my nose clean
    need an interstellar shelter in space

    i’d go with you anytime

    looking up at the stars
    or looking down at the earth
    never dark enough for a good view
    take this wonder what is it worth

    i’d go with you anytime

    hey friend, give me a ride
    i’m holding on, my sense of adventure
    my sense of adventure
    my sense of adventure
  14. the tiniest sound (14) 2:54 » lyrics
    sometimes all i can feel are my fingers
    reaching down like raindrops
    splashing with the tiniest sound
    when they get to where they’ve got

    sometimes all i can feel are my toes
    pulling me, deciding every step
    digging in, they root themselves
    and make a path to everyone i’ve met

    i’ll start walking in whatever direction
    i’ll only stop if i see you

    sometimes all i can feel are these thoughts
    crowding out all of the good
    they push and pull and leave no space
    i’m taking it back and maybe you should

    i’ll start walking in whatever direction
    i’ll only stop if i see you

    i’ll start walking in whatever direction
    i’ll only stop if i see you
    i’ll only stop if i see you
    i’ll only stop when i see you
  15. oh, the silence (15) 3:22 » lyrics
    all the noise it drowns out
    all the words i write down
    oh, the silence sneaks in
    start, start, start start again

    all the noise it makes sense
    let it in your head
    oh, the silence gives in
    start, start, start start again

    take my hands and i will
    take your hands and we will
    make it through, make sense of it all

    all the ringing church bells
    oh, the roaring thunder swells
    oh, the silence sneaks in
    start, start, start start again

    and the back it finally breaks
    metal on metal aches
    oh, the silence gives in
    start, start, start start again

    take my hands and i will
    take your hands and we will
    make it through, make sense of it all

    all the chanting and the crowds
    shouldn’t have to be so loud
    oh, the silence gives in
    start, start, start start again

    start, start start again
  16. even in the darkness (16) 2:26 » lyrics
    close the windows and draw the curtains
    something is happening here
    check the doors and find the flashlights
    we need a plan but there’s nothing to fear

    it’s getting dark but there’s a little light left
    follow it, go where it goes

    listen real close and you’ll find the answers
    if you can wait till the end
    care about truth and care about love
    these things will find you again and again

    it’s getting dark but there’s a little light left
    follow it, go where it goes
    i’ll wait for you even in the darkness
    the darkness nobody knows

    when the sun rises, the story is done
    the arc is long and it bends
    i’ll find love wherever it lives
    and grieve for peace wherever it ends

    it’s getting dark but there’s a little light left
    follow it, go where it goes
    i’ll wait for you even in the darkness
    the darkness nobody knows
    i’ll wait for you even in the darkness
    the darkness nobody knows
  17. hold these truths (17) 2:43 » lyrics
    creaking of the branches, broken limbs
    holding strong until they don't anymore
    never hear the wind, just the things that it bends
    i've never been here before

    hold on to what you can, dear
    listen closely and watch for what you can't hear
    i won't leave you behind
    but nothing's waiting for us on this side

    dust it blows across the globe, when it reaches me
    i envy what it's seen
    we hold these truths to be self-evident
    the evidence makes me wonder what that means

    hold on to what you can, dear
    listen closely and watch for what you can't hear
    i won't leave you behind
    but nothing's waiting for us on this side

    hold on to what you can, dear
    listen closely and watch for what you can't hear
    i won't leave you behind
    i won't leave you behind
  18. by the dawn (18) 3:26 » lyrics
    weatherman said sunny skies
    but the rain poured down on the fourth of july
    set a date for independence day
    where are we going? what do you say?

    there’s a moon shining bright tonight
    imitation bombs blast till the morning light
    sky is red, my head is, too
    close my eyes and think of you

    by the dawn, the early light, i wonder
    what’s going on?

    worried as hell, don’t let it show
    enough makes it through, sure you know
    easy going, can’t relax
    mind won’t stop, wringing hands

    there’s a moon shining brightly
    things are changing, at least they might be
    wait for me by the tracks
    twilight gleaming, don’t look back

    by the dawn, the early light, i wonder
    what’s going on?

    by the dawn, the early light, i wonder
    what’s going on?
  19. set the clocks again (19) 3:24 » lyrics
    one day these wheels are gonna roll again
    we’ll crank that engine, hit the road
    we’ll take this rolling home
    to places we used to go
    we’ll take this freedom like it’s owed

    one day this will be like home again
    not somewhere that we’re stuck
    we take each day as new
    and hold on to what is true
    we take our time, don’t try our luck

    and hey, I know it’s hard to forget
    might think we are
    but we’re not done with this yet

    today i set the clocks again
    to remember the time, it will go
    we’ll take each second that we can
    stick to an outline of our plan
    we’ll take this freedom like it’s owed

    and hey, I know it’s hard to forget
    might think we are
    but we’re not done with this yet
  20. under a dark sky (20) 4:30 » lyrics
    i saw you at the end of the block
    ‘neath these hundred year old trees
    at six to ten feet we stopped to talk
    under cloudy skies and summer’s heavy heat

    under a dark sky, under stars so bright
    you getaway drove until street signs were gone
    stopped on the roadside, turned off the headlights
    stared at that deep black sky, then moved on

    maybe i’ll see you again
    in a decade, or the world’s end
    maybe i’ll see you sometime

    they built with stone to keep the hope in
    ready for trouble, ready for a feast
    you and i are good at beginning
    we’ll stay if we want to, run if we need

    glad i saw you again
    in this new town, at the world’s end
    i’m glad we have some time

    the fires burn and glow into the night
    secrets don’t sleep and they know how to find us
    under a dark sky, under stars so bright
    you and i are here and that’s enough
  21. your view or mine (21) 2:35 » lyrics
    you were there, i was there
    we met at the right time
    a month or two, a year or two,
    had to wait ‘em out, let ‘em pass by

    making sense of this town
    making sense of our lives
    years they go, decades too
    hold on tight but let them pass by

    hold on, we have miles and miles left

    when we moved way out west
    might’ve overstayed our time
    headed east, hit the road
    everything and everyone let us pass by

    the world it turns, lumbers forward
    means the same from your view or mine
    the time we have, the time we lose
    hold on now, let it pass by
  22. the ground changed direction (22) 3:14 » lyrics
    i let the tall grass swallow me up
    summer dirt wet with rain
    i let the water tap like fingertips
    felt the grass and mud stain

    in the time it takes to get across the ocean
    i could lie here, never move again

    i climbed and climbed but lost my way
    swear the ground, it changed direction
    my hands refused to carry my weight
    my thoughts open to dissection

    in the time it takes to fight hard enough to win
    i could sink in, never fight again

    fresh cut grass and dusty earth
    summer shade and a view
    i let clouds roll in, dark and grey
    landscapes change and i do
  23. behind the wheel (23) 2:04 » lyrics
    behind the wheel, taking turns
    i’ll see you again on the road
    i’m sitting still, i’m running hard
    i’m tired, i’m restless but i’m home

    under a tree, summer heat
    i’ll find me a lake to jump in
    i’m mapping paths, i’m packing up
    i’m tired, i’m restless and i’ve been

    don’t know where it is i want to be
    but i know i’ll be coming back home

    wait for me, catching up
    i’m taking more time than i should
    write and read, talk and listen
    i’m tired but trying to be good

    don’t know where it is i want to be
    but i know i’ll be coming back home
  24. golden age (24) 3:32 » lyrics
    i won’t go back to some golden age
    where everything, you say, was better
    the time we have now is right here
    it’s real, i can hold it for a second

    moving forward, even if i strayed
    it’ll last but it won’t last forever
    the time we have now, it’s never clear
    don’t run to the past, let it beckon

    we may not have tomorrow
    but we’ll never make yesterday again

    hurts to think how clocks they turn
    but time will go either way
    we’ve got it all, as much as we can
    rather walk in the dark than wait for mine

    take your time, your time to yearn
    relive the love but don’t stay
    i’ll learn to slow down, that’s my plan
    be careful where you step, don’t fall in line

    we may not have tomorrow
    but we’ll never make yesterday again
  25. back and forth (25) 3:30 » lyrics
    back and forth, a change of scenery
    we may have been here long ago
    file and sort, a place for all these things
    some of them we’ll be sure to keep close

    the words you say aren’t waiting
    and i know what you mean
    in between the lines i’m staying
    keeping my house lean

    smile and wave, staying where i’m at
    keep your distance and take care
    young and brave, hope you take it back
    maybe i’ll see you when i get there

    the words you say aren’t waiting
    and you know when you’re done
    in between the lines you’re staying
    don’t apologize to everyone

    back and forth, a change for you and me
    we may have been here, i don’t know
    file and sort, a place for all these things
    some of them we’ll take when we go
  26. look beyond (26) 2:45 » lyrics
    no need to run
    they're moving slowly
    see the way they walk
    they don't know where they're going

    you and i, we know
    we've always known
    we look beyond
    we don't take what we're shown

    time, it stays in place
    but we don't know better
    we still seem the same
    in my mind and i'm sure

    you and i, we know
    we've always known
    we let the train go
    find our own way home

    no need to run
    and you know i'm clumsy
    see the way i walk
    and you still walk with me

    you and i, we know
    we've always known
    take it all in
    but get yourself home
  27. weather blue (27) 3:10 » lyrics
    lift my fingers, let them fall
    i don’t tighten my grip
    but i hold onto it all
    read these stories, search for clues
    don’t believe every word
    but i still want some truth

    road it winds, take it slow
    i’d love to stay
    but we need to know
    poles they shift, weather blue
    i’ll be there waiting
    do what you need to

    tides they turn, planets spin
    i don’t know at all
    no idea where to begin
    lucky break, simple plan
    i have no clue
    but i’ll do what i can
  28. spark from the sun (28) 3:48 » lyrics
    the autumn wind is holding back
    quietly brushing past me
    sun goes down a little early every day
    don’t know when but i’m gonna leave

    i can’t hide for very long
    and i’m too tired to run
    i’ve taken time, tried to be strong
    i’ve seen myself lost
    in a spark from the sun

    boats they sink, waves bring them under
    no apologies are made
    you can take everything you’ve asked for
    don’t forget there’s a price to be paid

    i can’t hide for very long
    and i’m too tired to run
    i’ve taken time, tried to be strong
    i’ve seen myself lost
    in a spark from the sun

    the winter chill isn’t holding back
    hurts my face and my feet
    sun goes down too early every day
    i held you then, now i need to leave

    i can’t hide for very long
    and i’m too tired to run
    i’ve taken time, tried to be strong
    i’ve seen myself lost
    in a spark from the sun
  29. the words (29) 2:52 » lyrics
    caught up, trying to see past
    the words that move and move and move so fast
    take it out of the mold
    in the context of something you’ve been sold

    tell me every doubt you’re feeling
    trying to hold it together while my mind is reeling
    drifting out in the atmosphere
    take time to find what you’ll hold dear

    wake now, lift your heavy head
    the words, the words you heard, you wrote, you read
    stay here, the weariness will go
    you’ll be fine, take this time, feed what you’ve sown
  30. with belief (30) 3:02 » lyrics
    never close to silent here
    i'd be afraid if it was
    you speak to me so faintly
    i could never hear your voice enough

    when they come for us in the night
    as if there's a war to be won
    do they sleep soundly till the morning
    with belief in the good they've done?

    wash the earth from my face
    the freshest rain of the spring
    i can hear you calling
    i only wish you could hear me sing

    you walk so lonely in the cold
    looking down you almost miss me
    on that starry quiet night
    how could they take you so quickly?
  31. footsteps (31) 3:33 » lyrics
    buzzing in the trees
    or is it my phone
    is someone calling me?

    rumbling in the skies
    or is it the ground
    should i duck or climb?

    shadows in the fog
    or is it just me
    turn to look and they’re gone

    rustling in the leaves
    or is it nothing
    nothing coming after me?

    screaming in the dark
    or is it just you
    trying to do your part?

    footsteps creaking close
    or is it just you
    are you someone i know?
  32. empty roads (32) 2:08 » lyrics
    give me a town
    with empty roads
    give me a home
    and nowhere to go

    i’ll keep strumming
    as long as i’m running
    i’ll sit down
    and take it slow

    give me time
    to write this out
    give me a chance
    to work through this doubt

    i’ll keep trying
    to make something of my time
    i’ll sit down
    i’ll map this route
  33. street racing (33) 2:19 » lyrics
    thought i saw you
    waiting for me
    holding your hands out, fingers spread
    waving like there was something to see

    thought you called me
    we looked the same
    your voice sang like a gravel whisper
    on a rough road with no name

    i opened all the windows
    the silence was too much
    the cars scream in the night
    everybody wants to be tough
  34. you belong (34) 3:11 » lyrics
    the floors creak late at night
    nobody’s walking
    everyone’s tucked in tight
    they say every 100 years
    something’s moving
    someone’s crying lonely tears

    doorknobs rattle clumsily
    barefoot tripping
    quick, honey, look and see
    dogs stare at nothing in the hall
    nothing’s moving
    shuffling up the wall

    my fingers don’t work like they should
    can’t get a grip
    i’m made of dust, made of wood
    this house was empty for far too long
    i’m glad you’re here
    i hope you feel like you belong
  35. the slightest change (35) 3:09 » lyrics
    early morning, big ol’ trucks roll by
    shake the house, hear the windows
    rattle in the frames

    early morning, before the dawn meets the sky
    i’m not looking, i keep waiting
    for the slightest change

    i need to sleep in, don’t like thinking
    in the morning
    give me late nights, my mind is kinder
    to me then

    early evening, finding our way home
    engines turn, hands are ready
    honking horns and brakes

    early evening, caught up in all this
    keep repeating, what am i thinking
    i’ll take the time it takes

    i need to stay in, i’ll be back
    after the end
    give me late nights, my mind is kinder
    to me then
  36. string lights (36) 3:02 » lyrics
    it’s the golden hour
    hadn’t seen the sun in days
    gonna take a drive
    a little scared but that’s okay

    it’s the golden hour
    i’ll carry this when i leave
    looking up, straight ahead
    i’ll go with you if you’ll take me

    string lights cut through the night
    it’s cold but with a coat you’ll be fine
    i’ve been running, not sleeping much
    but we’ve been over that, over all that stuff

    it’s the golden hour
    i’m ready and i’m watching closely
    so much happening all at once
    i’m taking in a piece of everything

    string lights cut through the night
    haven’t won but didn’t lose this time
    i’ve been running, not sleeping much
    but we’ve been over that, over all that stuff
  37. where you've been (37) 3:23 » lyrics
    sweeping up broken glass
    watching the tiniest pieces fall through the cracks
    the year is gone, where did you go?
    watching for the break but there’s no telling, no

    every leaf has fallen down
    i can see the whole street, the world has gotten loud
    counting down, then back up
    none of this is wasted, there’s just never enough

    long sleeves on, the heat is too
    lucky to have what i need, i hope the same for you
    taking steps, don’t back down
    every word is true, hold on to it now

    autumn falls, winter comes
    i’ll wait for you on the other side of the sun
    look out there, take it in
    i’ll slip on your shoes, wanna know where you’ve been
  38. where the water goes (38) 2:34 » lyrics
    find me a home
    set it down by the river, oh
    i’m getting out of here
    come with me
    take these expectations
    i have the numbers and we’re clear

    we’ll follow the flow
    where the water goes
    it’s easier for now
    we’ll be fine
    we won’t go far
    it’s just time to get out of town
  39. catch our breath (39) 2:24 » lyrics
    pulling my bag over my shoulder
    it’s been so long since we left
    haven’t been gone, not sure
    where we can go
    when we need to catch our breath

    i’ve seen time stretch and bend its way
    through these days, through this year
    you’ve been strong, i’ve been trying
    and i don’t know
    what i’d do without you here
  40. on the moon (40) 2:54 » lyrics
    sending a letter, i’m coming home soon
    waiting for a break in the rain
    hold out your hands so i can reach you
    you’re different, i never change

    seeking asylum, you won’t find it there
    the gates are closed for good
    put those miles far behind where
    stone-faced killers once stood

    must be a cure for quelling these doubts
    if you know, show me the way
    trying to do good and i’m not sure now
    the ash and rubble remain

    sending a letter, i know you
    you told me you could see i was different
    hands on your shoulders, eyes on the moon
    in the darkness i know what you meant
  41. you, the unknown (41) 3:04 » lyrics
    i can see this wearing thin
    hairline cracks have grown
    this is heavy, not sinking in
    bracing for the unknown

    what year is this? fill me in
    i’m trying to find my home
    do i know you? is this somewhere i’ve been?
    heading toward the unknown

    the rain came before morning
    and fell so softly on our bones
    saw your face when you let the light in
    looking past the unknown

    i’ll hold my breath and cover my skin
    and i’ll wait like i’ve been shown
    the fire burns as the night drifts in
    i’ll wait for you, the unknown
  42. christmas will be all right (42) 2:47 » lyrics
    the snow is almost gone
    a few more days of wiping muddy paws
    i wish i could take you on a road trip out west
    maybe next year we’ll have a big christmas

    jingling jingle bells
    you and me and no one else
    hung our stocking and the lights
    this christmas will be all right

    i’ll leave the lights on late
    or if it’s cloudy i’ll leave them on all day
    they make it easier to think about who i miss
    maybe next year i’ll see you on christmas

    jingling jingle bells
    you and me and no one else
    hung our stocking and the lights
    this christmas will be all right
  43. in a year (43) 3:25 » lyrics
    what’s in a year? what can it hold?
    a bunch of days and months taking us down the road
    the clock hits 12, what has changed?
    walking this long hard hilly path till i reach the plains

    i won’t run from anything
    but i won’t fight this war
    we’ll hold this hope in our hands again
    remember what we do this for

    i’ve seen your face clean and sober
    don’t give yourself to the world, the world takes over
    i’ll make it home, back to the valley
    this rough and rocky road has something left for me

    i won’t run from anything
    but i won’t fight this war
    we’ll hold this hope in our hands again
    remember what we do this for

    what’s in a year? what can it bring?
    i’ll take every ounce of hope that it’s offering
    the clock hits 12, and we remain
    accept this constant, things constantly change

    i won’t run from anything
    but i won’t fight this war
    we’ll hold this hope in our hands again
    remember what we do this for
  44. islands of light (44) 3:03 » lyrics
    snow and rain, back and forth
    clouds they tell me be ready for more
    a new day’s coming, ready or not
    i’m going in with all that i’ve got

    streetlights flicker, islands of light
    ‘neath the bright moon shining
    i’ll find my way through the night
    a new day’s coming, ready to move
    i’m going in but i have nothing left to prove

    traffic hums, engines rumble
    in the soft morning light i feel the moment’s pull
    a new day’s here, ready for me
    i’m going in with the whole world left to see
  45. stars leave what they may (45) 3:36 » lyrics
    standing outside on my porch
    searching the sky for fireworks
    the moon lights up the clouds
    i look up then back down

    take these few steps to the street
    take in the time, the quiet set aside for me
    the night keeps pushing through
    then the morning with you

    sunlight’s streaming in
    always too bright at the day’s end
    shadows hold their shape
    stars leave what they may

    standing outside my back door
    one last look before the storm
    i hear the quiet city sounds
    i look up then back down

    sunlight’s streaming in
    always too bright at the day’s end
    shadows hold their shape
    stars leave what they may
  46. out of the shelter (46) 3:32 » lyrics
    up the steps, out of the dark
    counting the years, it went too far
    the time is wasted, but we’re still here
    out of the shelter, in the clear

    the monuments stand no more
    dedications to long forgotten wars
    there aren’t any sides when the bombs drop
    out of the shelter, the shooting stopped

    i saw the paper, the last to print
    the final fall of the final government
    they were all drawing lines in the sand
    out of the shelter, they took their stand

    up the steps, out in the world
    no one’s taking prisoners with flags unfurled
    we got lucky, if that’s what we call this
    out of the shelter, they barely missed
  47. ungraceful silence (47) 2:28 » lyrics
    i walked in, no idea where to go
    who to talk to, do i know you
    i walked in, no idea where to go
    should i wait here, do i know you

    i’m building myself up for a grand entrance
    i’m working myself up into ungraceful silence

    i wandered in, no idea where to go
    how i got here, do i know you
    i wandered in, no idea where to go
    do i say hi, do i know you

    i’m looking all around for mild reassurance
    i’m working myself up into ungraceful silence

    i walked in, no idea where to go
    who to talk to, do i know you
  48. the light allowed (48) 3:28 » lyrics
    i’ve waited so long to see your face
    the walls between us held those details at bay
    we’re here now and i’ll try not to leave
    the time we lost, we’ll just have to let it be

    i don’t doubt you’ve heard a thing or two
    i’ll prove myself and show you they’re not true
    it’s taken time and there’s still time to spend
    please believe in me, these bad days will end

    i’m not the only one they’ve done wrong
    and i’m ready for the day those bars are gone
    we see things in the light they allow
    i’ll hold my light until the walls come down

    i’ve waited so long to see you again
    days were terrifying, nights would never end
    we’re here now and i’ll try so hard to stay
    i’ll be here for you, they won’t take me away
  49. all these mornings (49) 2:21 » lyrics
    gonna get normal
    get into a routine
    but my mind keeps fighting back
    somebody please
    get me out of my house
    i’ve tried everything but that

    all these mornings disappear
    like cars in dust on a dirt road
    sometimes the distance is too much
    while everything in the world feels too close

    all these sunny days
    the warmth that comes with them
    i like the promise winter brings
    someplace far away
    storms are being born
    the danger gives no reason to leave

    all these mornings disappear
    like cars in dust on a dirt road
    sometimes the distance is too much
    while everything in the world feels too close
  50. under the fading sun (50) 3:00 » lyrics
    stepping so clumsily, i’m finding a path
    today’s the day i’m taking it back
    everyone’s panicking and ready for collapse
    i’m with you, we don’t worry about that

    i’ve read these tired stories again and again
    paying attention and attention spends
    i’ll believe what i see, a little more, a little less
    wanna see this place with you and give the world some goodness

    the white-out’s coming, they said so on the news
    beat your neighbors to the store and buy some food
    make do with what i have and tell you what i’ve done
    we’ll keep each other company under the fading sun

    a hundred years for a moment of your time
    i’ll wait on this hill and watch the stars go by
    i’ve seen it all, the sunlight on your face
    i’ve seen the goodness and hope for this place
  51. the almost morning light (51) 4:34 » lyrics
    in the quietest moment i’m listening for you
    in the almost morning light i’m listening for you

    snow and ice are melting
    dripping into the gutters
    brightness noise returning
    today moves like the others

    stare up at the old trees, they’ll surely outlast me
    these houses creak and shift, they’ll surely outlast me

    saved a baby bird
    saved it from a dog bite
    ran from a fisher cat
    its scream tore through the night

    in the quietest moment it all comes rushing in
    in the almost morning light it all comes rushing in

    i want to see what you saw
    in those final moments
    150 million miles away
    you disappeared in the silence

    in the quietest moment i’m listening for you
    in the almost morning light i’m listening for you
  52. while we're waiting (52) 3:13 » lyrics
    i can’t sleep until these thoughts leave my head
    trying to work it all out, tossing, turning in my bed

    i try to keep my eyes closed
    but the light of the moon, it knows

    the speed of it all is so much
    i try to get bored, it’s not enough

    i’ve seen you, lifetimes pass
    it’s endless, it’s finite, it is what we have

    the coldest night of the year
    i feel so alive even if it hurts

    but while we’re waiting this will change
    and the light of the moon shows the way